The thing is, the more I’ve built my work, and therefore my life and sense of self and worth, on a foundation of martyrdom, the more I have placed my identity and self-worth in opposition to my pursuit of joy, of inspiration, curiosity, openness, and light. I have placed it in opposition to creativity. I want to see what happens, who I become and what I could create, when I embrace wholeness and joy and stepping into life as me, a creative person. I do so asking what it might look like to stand still and stop the sun and attempting for my daily life to be a curious enactment of the answer.